Even Though (Day Two of the New Year)
Even though it's the first Tuesday
in October I am still hoping
winter is not the way I remember even though
we have the chance to reflect and atone I am
sitting on my brown leather couch ordered
online from Vietnam the couch arrived as though
it belongs right here and it does even though I am not
reflecting or atoning or preparing for winter
I will go to the library for More Books meet
my friend Fran at Spa 32 friends for birthday dinner
even though I am not officially doing what I should be doing
who knows what that is maybe being in a Big Official Room
reflecting atoning preparing for winter or writing a small book
about the big subject of aging at the library instead of taking stacks
of other people's books even though I now make lists
sometimes I have never made lists before my lists are words I like
and what I might do but probably won't even though it's a big year
5780 how big is that I will buy peaches if there are any left from summer
at the farmer's market sometimes there are peaches even in early October
and I will play Shlomo Carlebach's Rosh Hashanah music even though
he is not politically correct any more and read Other People's Books in the park
if it's a good day and continue with the lists as a way of reflection
and maybe even atonement even thought my words are more
thank you than sorry even though.